No pretense here…..parenting has been an eye opening, humbling, character molding experience for me. I’m grateful it has made me rely heavily on God like nothing else has.
I have literally asked the Holy Spirit for inspiration on how to get across to my daughter, how to manage my day, how to still be me…… I have asked for help to maintain self control and not to snap over little things. I have given and given until I thought surely I have nothing else to give, but then I found I just can’t stop giving.
I used to be a very independent person, but parenting has made me ask for help and accept help that I’d have ignored. I used to have all my ducks in a row, but now, as long as the ducks are okay, they can very well stay wherever they choose.😂
I’ve been humbled. The joy, yet utter disbelief, that I can allow another human scribble nonsense in my books, what! But to get a moment to myself, I can give her my head.
And do not let me even get started on the mom guilt – when I let her watch too much TV just to get some sleep, when she is crying loudly in the store over something I don’t want to buy or over what I don’t even know (am I the only mom here nitori olohun) , when I feel she didn’t eat enough but I’m too tired to make anything else, so I offer Yoghurt….is bread and Yoghurt even a meal? 😭
All these I can even deal with and get over, but Zoe and I have a private battle we are fighting to overcome…..
A few days ago I was going to do what I usually do when I feel overwhelmed – recoil (isolate). Some people may feel this is a good way to re-energize, and yes, it can be, but truth to be told, I do it sometimes when I feel alone, insecure, like no one is getting me. I just want to be by myself, let the world pass by……
Then I read the words “if you’re tired from carrying heavy burdens, come to me and I will give you rest”. I didn’t read that as a Christian, I read it as a mom. Perspective makes a world of difference. It was an invitation for me, not to isolate, but to connect.
Whichever way you do it, parenting isn’t easy. Whether as a single mom, providing and parenting (I doff my hat to you), as a married woman who has her husband for some support, as a mom who has grandma around to help, whichever way, the buck still stops with you and it’s work.
I would like to extend Christ’s invitation to you. I would like to connect with you. I don’t want to do this alone either. I want a friend or some friends I can pray with, to give and get encouragement. It might not be any formal arrangement, just set a date and time, once in a while, to pray, meet, share scriptures, share counsel, just support!
If you’re a young mom reading this and would like to share this journey with me, leave a comment below and I’d hit you up.
Don’t forget, two are better than one.
With Christ’s love,